Remember how I told you about inner feeling and how we, as humans are energetical beings first and then emotional and only then physical? Well, I’m convinced that our intuition knows things before we do. Energy never ever lies.

Look, I have been that person who tries to rationalize everything and define things before I feel them, but as I’m getting older, I am becoming more in tune with that inner feeling/intuition. Not that I don’t rationalize still, I do. But I listen to my body first and then I combine the two. And also, I have a trait I truly cannot understand sometimes – I try to endure something as much as possible, it’s like I secretly like to suffer in order to experience something fully.

I think that costs me gravely. It’s not that I only pay with time, but I pay that price in a second most valuable currency – health. That’s why I always admired people who have the courage to walk away from people and things on a first sign of disrespect. I tend to justify and understand the reasons behind certain behaviour, I try to analyse and go into depths, wasting my energy and time on something that won’t be relevant to me in the next 5 to 10 years like I mentioned in my previous post.

But one thing is for sure, the more I try to escape that inner feeling, the bigger it gets. And once I tune in, it’s too late for everyone. I don’t have to execute a decision on the conscious, verbal level, but if I cut it energetically, that’s it. There is no going back for me or for anyone else. If I cut it, I cut it for life. That’s it. If I cut a situation and I leave it slightly open, that means I left the door barely closed, just like I did when I was leaving aviation. But with everything else, if I’m done, I’m done. And in addition to this, I absolutely need to learn how to deal with disrespect right there and then, instead of going about it for days on end and to people who know nothing about it. Because it’s really difficult to be both objective and subjective when it’s you who is being disrespected.

Sometimes I feel bad for myself because I pity other people and I feel awful when I try to understand their point of view and I’m not being understood back. Because as one meme said Even at my most evil, I’m considerate. Which in my opinion is a mistake. Unless you don’t filter your words and/or emotions. Because people should get exactly what they give. Otherwise, one party ends up slapping a band aid onto a broken leg. And as my math teacher said once Apologizing after disrespect is like a slap followed by an apology. Useless. So, if you are being disrespected, you should disrespect back, because being a bigger person in that situation will catapult you directly into disease and sickness. Bigger person? Who is that? We have a saying in my native language that says something along the lines of with thugs I behave as a thug, with royalty I behave as royalty. And I think that’s the philosophy of life. There is no bigger person there.

So, in order to be the best version of ourselves, it’s important to balance out intuition with rational thinking, because feeling something is already 99% accurate and done. Rationalizing is just a cherry on top. Otherwise, it goes into opposite direction, and we overthink, overthinking breeds anxiety and anxiety breeds fear, fears breed unhappiness, unhappiness breeds depression. It’s a very vicious cycle and if you are not careful it can drag you down before you even know what happened.

Feeling things will save your life. Intuition will save our lives. More than any brain override will. Trust that feeling, it’s usually very subtle but very, very present. It’s like knowing you will wake up tomorrow, knowing what your next task will be, it’s very natural, but very powerful. And you should always follow it. You know that feeling when you break up with someone and you just know it’s over, even if your brain is denying it? That’s the exact knowing I’m talking about.

Imagine me in therapy. I would be a nightmare for a therapist. Because I would start digging their mind instead of them digging mine. Girl, I’m a professional gravedigger, there is nothing you can dig that I haven’t dug out already.

I bet that Universe took a little extra time on cooking me, because what do you mean I’m this complex and what do you mean I share astrology placements with Edgar Allan Poe? I might tell you more about it in my next post.

Until then, please listen to yourself. Your inner feeling, your knowing, your gut. Our energies don’t lie and even if something is scary, it will literally warn you and save your life. Don’t listen to anyone but yourself.