Did you ever experience the lingering feeling of a massive change? Did you ever feel something approaching but you can’t see it yet how does it all connect in the collective? I think that sometimes massive transformations happen quietly. Let’s dive deeper.

My entire year felt like a massive release fire pit. Things just kept on revealing themselves and it just recently clicked how I feel like I’m releasing so many things that no longer serve me; jobs, friendships, narratives, programs, beliefs. It all came together but it came in waves. If you pay attention, you will notice that it happens collectively too. One type of people embraces trends with no thought of repercussions, while others reject it and warn about the harm these trends cause. That is why I always say that whatever we go through can be seen in the collective as well.

Personally, I believe that some lessons and difficulties we can overcome only by going through them, because there is no way around it. And it makes me wonder how come people who don’t think much about anything go through life with such ease and light? Is it only reserved for certain souls to be carefree while others carry all the weight? Is that the balance of the Universe?

Most people I know and interact with are against AI because of how harmful it is to the environment, animals and us and I doubt that anyone would have second guessed it if it was like the invention of the internet and smart phones. This is going too far and the price we are paying for it is already too high. But people who use it daily and ask dumb questions and make irresponsible and irrelevant trends are the ones I mentioned above. They don’t care about the environment, animals, other humans. They only care about their entertainment.

How can you go through life without caring for another living being? If you don’t care about humans, animals and nature, do you at least care about your family? Do you care about the children you want to have, and does it cross your mind what kind of world you will leave to that child? Do you care that the same world will be burned, expensive and totally out of balance due to little cheap entertainment you wanted to give yourself? What the fuck are we doing?

Don’t get me wrong, I’m sure that AI can be useful one day for certain jobs, it can create shortcuts and make certain things easier, like some accounting jobs, some IT stuff that takes a lot of time, but I think it’s already being misused. Can anything else be used to cool off these giant dystopic data centres? Who came with the idea to use the most precious source we have – water? And why does the system want us dead so much?

And why is it that almost every country has a shitty leader that wants to live forever and just push the rest of us into the abyss? I have so many questions and 0 answers. I’m beginning to understand witches that lived in the forest. Nobody bothered them and they got to live however they wanted far away from everyone’s bullshit.

If you are wondering how all of this connects to me and the collective, I will elaborate. For example, I have discovered that the programs I came with to this planet already contained the basic package: find a “normal” job, have your own place, find a husband, get married, have children, follow the trends and justify the standards set by other people in your life and society in general. And then I had sobering sessions with my friend, I talked to other people, I observed them (a typical Scorpio Asc) I started to catch on and pinpoint the patterns. And I said to myself: to hell with all that! I don’t want that. It sound boring, it sounds mundane, I don’t want to be unhappy. If I got one chance here, then I’m going to do my best to make it the most magical and beautiful time, no matter how much shit I have to eat to get there. The programs I’m releasing and will continue to are the same programs 90% of populations lives with, actively choses and considers normal. But as Morticia Addams said: “Normal is an illusion. What is normal for a spider is chaos for the fly”. This is what actually opened my eyes. 16 – 17 years ago I was having the same mindset I have now. Normal things scared me because they never fit in my narrative. Life is too precious to be wasted on feeling caged. And this is exactly what each and every one of us need to do; separate ourselves from narratives and programs installed in us. This is not to say that I’m better than others just because I’m aware, this is just to point out how conditioned we are into these things, and we can absolutely change the course.

I can see the conditioning in my friends, acquaintances, colleagues. I can smell the programs on them; it makes me sad because there is nothing you have to do. There are only things you want and don’t want to do. You don’t have to have children, you don’t have to get married, you don’t have to do the job you hate, you don’t have to hang out with people who do not love you and support you. Literally, you can do whatever you want. But I also understand how difficult it is to separate from these narratives. Some people don’t have the capacity, and they will never understand what you are talking about because they only care about what has to be done and to do what everyone else is doing.

I’m not going to inflate my own ego, but I have to admit one thing; it feels good to wake up to your power again. It feels great to open your eyes and notice everything you pushed a side in order to play a certain role. I’m damn proud of myself for the work I put in even through hardship, depression and crippling fears. It’s been dark and hard, but so worth it. I have no regrets because I know that where I’m going is much better than what I’m leaving behind.